"To each their own"

After the past few weekends being a bit busy, it was nice to have a low key weekend. Friday evening I got to catch up a bit with good friend. Its crazy how time can get away from you. The next thing you know, its been 6mths and you haven't spoken to each other. Except for Facebook....
I'm going to try and do a better job of keeping up with my friends. I have a tendency to get lost in what I'm doing and lose focus of others. I feel bad about that because my friends are very important to me. I pray time won't get away from me so much, and I do better at being a good friend :)

Yesterday morning did our usual Saturday morning routine and went grocery shopping. Before that we went to this great little cafe in BA called Kenosha Cafe. It's across the street from Rhema. Shawn had been there a few times with a coworker and thought I'd like it. It's only open for breakfast and lunch but it was so good. Very inexpensive too! They had a wall sign full of all their homemade pies, cobblers, and cakes. They all sounded great, but I just stuck to breakfast(trying to be good). SO the reason I bring this up is because as I get older, I'm starting to appreciate places like this. Much more than I ever did before. I really like the idea of a mom and pop time diner or cafe. Instead of all the chain restaurants we have in and around Tulsa. I like those too, it's just nice to have something different. It's great to go in a smaller place like that and feel like the people there genually enjoy what they do. It's funny to say but you can taste it in the food too. Or maybe that's just me, I don't know. Any new places like this I find, I'll let ya know! OH, Shilohs...OMG..if you want AMAZING homecookin food, go there! You will not be disappointed, trust me :)

OKay, enough about food. New topic!
We went to visit my grandma today after church. It was a pretty good visit as she seemed in a good mood and pretty responsive. Quick back story, my grandma is 86, she has ever advancing alzhemiers and she is living in an assisted living facility. I'm very close to my grandma or was very close to her, before all that started. She's been more than a grandma to me, more like a second mother. My mother is/was extremely close to her. They were best friends, she told her everything. It's hard to see how it hurts my mom when she doesn't remember something...like her name. Sometimes I'm not sure if she realizes that my mom is her daughter. Thankfully though, the heart of who my grandma is, is still there. She's still funny and the sweetest person you'll ever meet. She still loves people and likes to be around them.
She's in a good place and I think they take very good care of her. At first that was very hard for her to adapt to. She's always been the caretaker and she doesn't know how to step out of that roll. Even know when we visit, she's always asking if we need anything "take a cookie, take two" "we can turn on the tv, watch whatever you want". As I type this, I can't help but tear up a bit. If there was ever a person to have as a hero, she's it. She's strong in her faith, even now. She'll tell me" I've been praying for your baby" as in praying for me to have one.

Okay, gotta stop typing that. A bit to difficult to go there right now. Just know that I love my grandma and I can't wait for the day in heaven when we'll sit down and have one of our awesome conversations like we use to before "A" started taking her away.

God Bless

Ps- "To each their own" is something my grandma always says ;)

Nobody said it was easy

Glad it's Friday, but it was a pretty crazy day. Well mostly until about 3ish, then it slowed down. Office on Friday mornings is always busy but today seemed to get away from me a bit, kind of like I was chasing my tail. Right in the middle of it all, we had a patient show up saying they were suppose to have an appt for U/S and I didn't remember talking to them about it or making an appt. Long story short, our U/S tech was out and they lived far away so I was scrambling to figure out what to do. Luckily I got them taken care of and all turned out okay. I just don't like letting people down and I'm not a big fan of surprises. It just put a damper on the day.

The bittersweet of the day was all the babies. Babipalooza, I called it. I had it pointed out to me that I use that term alot(palooza). I know it's goofy but I'm goofy so it fits, I think.

Anyway...a few people brought their babies up to work today, then my bestest friend found out she's having a girl(YAY!). On top of that I found out a few more people are pregnant. Which, honestly, is great! I'm so happy for everyone, truly I am! It's just hard sometimes when it feels like everyone around you is apart of this awesome inside joke and I didn't hear the punch line. I'm getting to a good place with the whole pregnancy thing but some days it's still hard.

We've been "trying" for about a year without success. To spare all the details, my cycles are outta wack and the problem is my insulin level is off. SO yea, need to lose weight and really watch my sugar/carb intake. These things I already knew, it's just a lot more concrete when your doctor lays it out for you. My dr recommended the South Beach diet so I started that a few weeks ago. It's a daily battle, something I've dealt with for a long time. The best part of all of this is that I have Jesus to turn to and my amazing husband. He's right there with me every step of the way, always caring and supportive.

I know that God has His perfect timing and it will all work out as it should. I look back at a time when all I did was pray to meet my husband. I was involved with all the wrong people and I had given up. I was convinced I'd never find him and I was just going to be single. Thinking of that makes me shake my head now. I was only 26 and I was thinking it was all over for me regarding love. Now here I am, with a husband that's so much more then I could have ever dreamed for myself. I'm so thankful that God's in control and I'm not because my life would be a disaster. I keep my hope and faith in that fact and know God wouldn't have given me such a desire to be a mother if he didn't mean for me to be one someday.

I'll be so happy to look back at this moment in my life as I'll sit with all my babies and think" why was I in such a hurry for this?!?!" LOL just kidding. I'll think back and shake my head and laugh at myself. It'll be more amazing than I can imagine now and I'll be again blessed by God's love and faithfulness.

God bless :)

Giving it a try

I've tried several times without success to have a blog. I have a tendency to get on board with something and not follow thru. It's something I'm working on. However I do think it'd be a cathartic thing for me to blog even if no one ever reads it. I just don't want it to turn out like old journals I've read of mine..depressing. My life is very different though, I'm not a teenager with a wounded soul( or at least that's what I'd have you believe if you were to read those journals) Man, girls can be so over the top with the emotional distress mantra.
I digress...
So the point is I'm a blogger now. I will blog about my life, my relationship(every growing) with Jesus, my desire for children and whatever else I want. After all it's my blog so HA!

Just a side note, I don't like the word "blog". Don't know what I'd change it to but there ya go!

OH also, I have a tendency to type fast and leave out words so if you're a grammer geek, you're going to have a field day reading this! I think I might have a slight case of dyslexia. Sounds good, I'll stick with that.

God Bless ;)